My day started off great.
I cleaned the restaurant, or more accurately, I tried to. Because the phone rang. And I’m just the cleaning lady. I picked up hesitantly. My heart was beating audibly. I put the phone to my ear and started. “Hello, this is-”
RING RING RING
I had forgotten to push the green button. Now, I pushed the button and put the phone to my ear again. “Hello this is-” then I bit my tongue, I swallowed back a curse and smiled. Not that the person on the other line could see me smile, but maybe some kind of positive energy would channel through. The other person also started hesitantly, not very encouraged by the way I so very skilfully picked up the phone probably. He mumbled something and I did not quite catch his name, again, then again and only on the third time it became clear who he was and what he wanted. I somehow managed to drag the reservation forward by an hour and looked at it with incredible pride. After he asked me twice, twice, if I had truly made it happen, that there would be no mistake at all he said something which was not altogether strange. I just could not comprehend it. He said, “I’ll see you tonight.” I thought, what does he mean? I only clean the place, I’m not going to be here tonight, or any night for that matter. Right. Wait. He doesn’t know that, so he might think- ah. And this probably went through my mind in only a second, although it felt like hours but he was already saying bye so I said, “yesseeyoutonightgoodbye.” Pretty much like that. I never want to pick up the phone again.
Then I went and picked up books. The last time I went there, there was this Goddess that helped me find the book I was looking for. It wasn’t there but she tried really hard. In any case, she was there again, and in my head she is called The Mermaid, because she has this long blond flowing hair with hints of pink and she looks sweet, calm and fierce at the same time. So I stormed in and said, “Well this time the books I want will be there!” as if saying it that way would make the books magically appear. She looked at me and only recognized me after an instant which was better than anything I’d hoped for since we’d only met once. We talked a bit at the counter when I realised it was incredibly hot in there. While I’m sweating as if I was already near the fires burning in hell, she asks if I’m in a hurry. I assured her I wasn’t. I felt the desperate need to get on my knees and beg for forgiveness, crying that my sweaty, dirty appearance was not worthy of her beauty. I resisted. I escaped, wiped the sweat of my brow and started the journey home. I saw my father whizzing past me on his bicycle and I yell “dad!” and wave my arms but he doesn’t see me. Others do. I can almost hear them thinking. “Poor girl, her own father ignores her. Do you suppose he never wanted her? Oh the drama, drama everywhere, maybe she has only recently found out she actually had a father-” I felt really foolish, like the way you feel after waving to someone you think you know, but he doesn’t turn out the be that person, just a look-a-like.
Lieve, unwanted, fatherless, in awe of one of the most beautiful women ever laid eyes upon, (Which suggest there a women somewhere who are extremely beautiful but no one has ever seen them. In all likelihood they live somewhere in a cave with one or two breeding males of excellent stock so they can keep reproducing. It would be like a community where only beauty matters and if any ugly children are born they will be cast out or exiled.), the wrong kind of sweaty, and foolish.
(She will still kill for a price though.)